Ted Talks Poetic Response.

Sarah Kay: How many lives can you live?
http://www.ted.com/talks/sarah_kay_how_many_lives_can_you_live.html

I watched the Sarah Kay TED talk and was pleasantly surprised with it. She opened with an enchanting poem about an astronaut who wanted nothing more than to be a scuba diver. After the poem she spoke about how she used to think she could be anything and everything she wanted to be as a kid. Yet as she grew up she realized how she could only live one life and be one person. I tried really hard to find a connection to this talk but I couldn't, she had so many ideas of what she aspired to be but I never did. I was constantly asked what career I wanted and where I could see myself in 5, 10 or even 15 years but I would do nothing but shrug it off, I still have time, I would think. Eventually it will hit me like a ton of bricks and I will know. But so far nothing. It scares me to think that one day I will no longer be a student, I will be an adult and I will have to know what I want to do and be. My mom tells me of all the things she says I could do, things I could be successful at but they do not appeal to me. "Go to school, take a trade" she would say, If I changed my mind I could switch but why? Why waste money and time for something I do not want to be. Its not even careers that scare me but where I see my life going in general, I am not crazy intelligent. or an artist, a basketball star, a dancer or a wonderful cook. I want to live so many lives and be so many things yet I find extreme difficulty in just being me, how could I bare to be more than that? Lately when the question comes back to me about what I want to be all I can do is shrug but in the last little while I have come to a conclusion, happy. I would like nothing more than to be happy, but hopefully one day a career will come to me, until then I will remain trying to live one life, mine.